Lent Lectio: Psalm 130, A Song of Ascents

April 8, 2011

Psalm 130

A Song of Ascents.

Out of the depths I have cried to You, O LORD.
    Lord, hear my voice!
         Let Your ears be attentive
         To the voice of my supplications.
    If You, LORD, should mark iniquities,
         O Lord, who could stand?
    But there is forgiveness with You,
         That You may be feared.
    I wait for the LORD, my soul does wait,
         And in His word do I hope.
    My soul waits for the Lord
         More than the watchmen for the morning;
         Indeed, more than the watchmen for the morning.
    O Israel, hope in the LORD;
         For with the LORD there is lovingkindness,
         And with Him is abundant redemption.
    And He will redeem Israel
         From all his iniquities.

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the cadence of this song
resonates with an intensity
like a porthole witnessing my own inertia
because this world often leaves me
tattered
edges fraying
in the dark depths

yet as my heart cries out
I find myself stirred to such sudden
awareness of an Undefiled Attention
that stokes my flame
entangled as it has become with
I-Will-Be-Who-I-Will-Be

so-much-so that even in my darkest crevices
I can become deliciously abuzz with
the conundrum of fear and forgiveness
the enigma of Divine Intervention
as hope rests her delicate hand upon my shoulder
beckoning for me to evermore savor redemption
amid the echoing hush of wilderness awe

thus I find myself
watching and waiting
for each new day
and new mercies
whose touch enflames my heart
and whose fingers entwine with my own
summoning me to
ascend to sanctuary
singing at their side
a wondrous song of deliverance

+O Lord, though the apple tree fade and the vineyard fail; though storms surge or the heavens dry up; redeem us with Your Presence and be with us on our way to gather with You-Who-Walks-Among-Us, because our lips – our tongues – they thirst for Living Water as we await Your Word like watchmen on the walls just before sunrise. Amen+

Teaching People to Experience God

March 2, 2011

In this session from the Society of Vineyard Scholars conference in Seattle, Stanford Anthropologist DR. Tanya Luhrmann presents her findings after studying what and how Vineyard churches teach people to experience God.  One of the fascinating pieces is her exploration of the spiritual disciplines implicit and explicit as a member of a Vineyard community, which help to form us, and it’s correlation to Ignatian spirituality.  Enjoy!

SVS 2011 Plenary #2: Tanya Luhrmann from Society of Vineyard Scholars on Vimeo.

Taking Stock of Your Miserable Existence

February 25, 2011

Nigel Marsh riff-ing from St. Benedict

Advent Lectio – Week 2: Psalm 85:1-2, 8-13

December 3, 2010

Psalm 85:1-2, 8-13
A psalm of the sons of Korah.

You restored the captivity of Jacob.
You forgave the iniquity of Your people;
You covered all their sin. Selah. (1-2)
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Too often I’ve separated favor and forgiveness … yet here they’re intertwined. The mystery of the Lord’s favor/restoration and forgiveness/atonement indeed overwhelm our iniquity; not just mine, but ours. I’m humbled in such wonder at the encompassing goodness of our God, the strength of our Redeemer, the love and humility of Jesus, the very Lamb of God.
__________

I will hear what God the LORD will say;
For He will speak peace to His people, to His godly ones;
But let them not turn back to folly.
Surely His salvation is near to those who fear Him,
That glory may dwell in our land.
Lovingkindness and truth have met together;
Righteousness and peace have kissed each other.
Truth springs from the earth,
And righteousness looks down from heaven.
Indeed, the LORD will give what is good,
And our land will yield its produce.
Righteousness will go before Him
And will make His footsteps into a way. (8-13)
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The voice of God rings anew as we return again to listen to His Incarnation. In the waiting of Advent, He speaks peace to us. Does not t the angel’s joyous chorus echo to us even now: Glory to God in the highest, And on earth peace among men with whom He is pleased.

He is pleased. He is pleased to shower His sacrificial and humble Love upon people. This Jesus — the way, the truth, the life; the One in whom Mercy, Truth, Righteousness and Peace come together, who has become the Way we have waited for, and in whose footsteps we now follow, so that a harvest beyond our imaginings would be yielded. Glory to God in the highest … redemption draws nigh.

+ O Lord, lead us – Thy People – in Your Way, into Truth and all Life. Life-Giver, You who live through us, we remember your humble heart in this season of waiting anew; we ever wait upon You, O Lord.  Amen. +

Lectio for Feast of All Saints: Luke 6:20-31

November 1, 2010

 

 20Looking at his disciples, he said:
   ”Blessed are you who are poor,
      for yours is the kingdom of God.
 21Blessed are you who hunger now,
      for you will be satisfied.
   Blessed are you who weep now,
      for you will laugh.
 22Blessed are you when men hate you,
      when they exclude you and insult you
      and reject your name as evil, because of the Son of Man.

 23“Rejoice in that day and leap for joy, because great is your reward in heaven. For that is how their fathers treated the prophets.
 24“But woe to you who are rich,
      for you have already received your comfort.
 25Woe to you who are well fed now,
      for you will go hungry.
   Woe to you who laugh now,
      for you will mourn and weep.
 26Woe to you when all men speak well of you,
      for that is how their fathers treated the false prophets.

Love for Enemies
 27“But I tell you who hear me: Love your enemies, do good to those who hate you, 28bless those who curse you, pray for those who mistreat you. 29If someone strikes you on one cheek, turn to him the other also. If someone takes your cloak, do not stop him from taking your tunic. 30Give to everyone who asks you, and if anyone takes what belongs to you, do not demand it back. 31Do to others as you would have them do to you.
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At first reading, the alarm begins to rise within me…I’m cursed.  Woe to me: the rich, the well-fed, the person-spoken-well-of.  Yet no amount of self-flagellation can rid me of my past and present.  Then I read it again, and what I had missed or skimmed over upon first reading seems to stand-out: “Looking at his disciples,…”  This is what I claim to be, seek to be…an apprentice of Jesus.  A vision painted for me of what life-lived-like-the-Master is being painted for me.  Rails to run on so-to-speak.  I feel a release into a new trajectory – even if for today…for this moment: my arrow has been re-adjusted back toward the narrow gate, the road less traveled. 
 
And then Jesus is speaking to anyone who can hear him:  Love your enemies.  A deeper-sort-of-subversion begins to take shape.   this is a message and a call to action that although it began in ancient times, still echoes afresh today.  Can I grasp this utterly risky, faith-dependent way?  Can I trust enough to love my enemies?  Is that too much to expect for someone bound by their vested interests in the evermoreso interconnective world of 21st Century?  Are we trapped in our circumstance?  Or can I even imagine (and then enflesh) the courage and faithfulness to follow this revolutionary agenda:
  • to lay down our rights?
  • to seek first His Reign/Kingdom/Agenda?
  • to love my neighbor as myself?
  • to love my enemy?
 
[May it be so O Lord...Make it so...amen!]

Five leadership secrets of the Trappist monk

July 20, 2010

Five leadership secrets of the Trappist monk

 

Stephen Martin

Stephen Martin, who explores leadership as a speechwriter and as a business columnist for the Raleigh (N.C.) News & Observer, has written for America, Commonweal and U.S. News & World Report.

Trappist monks live apart from the world. But their rich and ancient traditions also offer vital lessons on leadership for those of us living in it. The Roman Catholic order, founded in Citeaux, France, has practiced prayer nonstop for nearly a thousand years. Responsible for supporting themselves, they have been entrepreneurs for just as long.

As times and market conditions have changed, Trappists have kept up by reinventing their businesses continually. Since the founding of Mepkin Abbey near Charleston, S.C., in 1949, for example, the monks there have sold cinnamon buns, ventured into logging, run a large egg farm and, most recently, started selling native plants. How have Trappists thrived through the centuries? Here are five of their secrets:

1. Get (really) disciplined. As in waking up at 3 a.m. every day for the rest of your life. That’s when Trappists rise for Vigils, their first community prayer of the day. They will gather for worship five more times before turning in at 8 p.m. In between, they work, study and pray some more. Their schedule almost never varies. Their meals rarely change. They talk as little as possible. Everything about their lives is ordered toward their mission of praising God.

On the surface, this routine seems like a soul-killing exercise in boredom. But tremendous focus paves their path to salvation. “The monk has a feel for the stark and the spare,” writes Michael Downey in his book, Trappist. “Fasting, abstinence, and keeping vigil are disciplines embraced so as to stay alert, awake for the coming of God.”

2. Throw away the key . At Holy Cross Abbey in Berryville, Va., where I recently made a weekend retreat, the doors to the guest rooms lock only from the inside. When you go out, there’s no way to secure your laptop or Blackberry or car keys. It’s a rather discomfiting reminder of what makes the Trappist world go round: trust, in God and your brothers. Spiritual growth doesn’t happen when we’re holding back or playing defense. It takes openness.

“Anytime you get put together with 15 or 20 people you don’t know, you’ll find things about them that are objectionable, and they’ll find them about you,” said Daniel DeVoe, the guest master at Holy Cross Abbey who is seriously thinking of becoming a Trappist himself. The trick is learning to appreciate the strengths of others, to give them the benefit of the doubt, to acknowledge your own shortcomings and work to fix them. It’s all about building trust, the ancient glue that, against all odds, holds together monastic organizations to this day.

3. Know your customer. During a retreat several years ago at Mepkin Abbey, I found myself alone in the gift shop with Brother Stephen, an elderly, startlingly fit, lifelong monk. He rang up a few items, swiped my credit card and asked how I was doing. I asked customers the same thing all the time when I clerked at a grocery store in high school. Unlike me, however, he actually cared about the answer.

I confessed, frankly, to being tired with a busy job, grad school, a young son and another child on the way. There wasn’t a lot of time for prayer, which was what I probably needed most. He nodded and remarked that perhaps helping raise my family was a form of prayer in itself. We talked for another 10 minutes. More insights, tailored just for me, followed — and I shouldn’t have been surprised.

As Michael Downey explains, the work of monks “is not to be understood primarily as a product for consumers in a marketplace. …The fruits of the monk’s labor are sold as a means of livelihood, but they are sold to persons, real people with deep needs, not bottom-line consumers.”

4. Shut up. A monk’s life is a study in humility. It’s about setting aside personal plans and ambitions for the good of the community, saying goodbye to worldly pleasures and doing highly repetitive work with few tangible rewards. It’s a daily exercise in probing your flaws and coming to terms with your own insignificance. This adds up to a perpetual assault on pride, and it starts with quieting down and listening to what your brothers have to say.

“We’re all so impressed by what we know,” said DeVoe, the Holy Cross guest master. But rather than overestimating our own abilities, he said, real knowledge comes from paying attention to those around us. Monks have a longstanding tradition of turning to spiritual directors for guidance in the contemplative life. The feedback they get gives them a better sense of their strengths and weaknesses and serves as a spark for change. “You learn things about yourself that you wouldn’t know otherwise,” DeVoe said.

5. Live in the margins. In his book Leaders Make the Future, futurist Bob Johansen notes that “true innovations are likely to come from the margins that are stretched, rather than from the mainstream.”

Trappists make their home in the margins. They labor in obscurity, their chosen path makes little sense to most people, and they’re criticized, sometimes even by fellow Christians, for closeting themselves away when they could be out in the world helping people with urgent problems. They have Web sites and use e-mail judiciously, but they take care not to swamp themselves with information and distraction. They remain, in other words, as counter-cultural as ever, and therein is their strength.

Over the centuries, as Downey writes, monasteries around the world (and not just Trappist ones) have served as “renowned centers of peace and refuge, the focal points of culture and education.” That’s surely because they have stood beside the mainstream and observed it carefully but never immersed themselves in it. Their perspective is always a bit out of step with the times and refreshingly original as a result.

“The logic of worldly success rests on a fallacy: the strange error that our perfection depends on the thoughts and opinions and applause of other men,” Thomas Merton, America’s most renowned Trappist monk, wrote in his landmark autobiography The Seven Storey Mountain.

More than 60 years since its publication, and centuries since their founding, Trappists still go their own way, focused and unhurried, free of the need for the world’s approval. By training, they’re too modest to say their experience with leadership can teach us anything, but we’d be wise to learn all we can from them anyway.

Listening as a Sacred Calling

April 8, 2010

I have become convinced that one of the most sacred callings we have as human beings is the call to listen.  By this of course, I mean deep listening to God, but my emphasis here-and-now is concerning other people.  I am talking about listening to people with significant regard to who they are and what they are saying.  To me, listening has become a treasured, sacred engagement, because it makes people significant and it empowers people; yet in a culture that hypes most everything and pumps up the volume to get your attention (or just distract you), we tend to denigrate listening; but it is one of the most powerful and empowering things we can do with one another.

It’s been my experience – both in a spiritual direction context, but equally in the broader contexts of my life – that when we listen to people, people feel loved.  I don’t need to have the answer but by merely listening and responding appropriately (sympathetic hand on their shoulder or taking them hand or little gestures like that both physical and just in my own demeanor), people feel loved.

Now listening might not come naturally to us, especially given the cultural norms I mentioned earlier.  We may need to train ourselves with disciplines like sustained attention and use skills like active listening.  Listening is about being present to people, and in being present to others, mysteriously we become more present to them and more absent to ourselves.  When this happens – when we truly listen, when we are truly present to others – people can almost touch the genuine authenticity in it; this is being a true friend, not putting on the role of “being a friend”, it is actually doing it.  Someone (ok, it was a guy named Jesus) at one time coined a phrase about when we play-act and perform…I think the Greek term was ‘hypocrite’.  When I’m genuine, when I am other-centered, it does not become about me and what I am feeling in response to what you are saying and what I am hearing.  It is about the other person and it remains that way while we are in that moment.  In our present North American context and society we struggle with this, because we “act” like we are listening [and the truth is people can typically sense that we aren't listening at all] but we are merely formulating our next thought in our head and waiting for a pause as our opportune moment to spill out what I am thinking…and when we do this, we aren’t really listening, we are being hypocrites.  Meanwhile, the opportunity for real listening, the opportunity for genuineness dissipates.

I feel lately that I want more and more genuineness in my life, thus I want more and more to become a great and deep listener…Lord help me.  OK, here is one recommended resource for further exploring this: Holy Listening by Margaret Guenther.

Lectio: Luke 19:28-40

March 26, 2010

After He had said these things, He was going on ahead, going up to JerusalemWhen He approached Bethphage and Bethany, near the mount that is called Olivet, He sent two of the disciplessaying, “Go into the village ahead of you; there, as you enter, you will find a colt tied on which no one yet has ever sat ; untie it and bring it here. “If anyone asks you, ‘Why are you untying it?’ you shall say, ‘The Lord has need of it.’ “ So those who were sent went away and found it just as He had told them. As they were untying the colt, its owners said to them, “Why are you untying the colt ?” They said, “The Lord has need of it.” They brought it to Jesus, and they threw their coats on the colt and put Jesus on it. As He was going, they were spreading their coats on the roadAs soon as He was approaching, near the descent of the Mount of Olives, the whole crowd of the disciples began to praise God joyfully with a loud voice for all the miracles which they had seenshouting : “BLESSED IS THE KING WHO COMES IN THE NAME OF THE LORD ; Peace in heaven and glory in the highest !” Some of the Pharisees in the crowd said to Him, “Teacher, rebuke Your disciples.” But Jesus answered, “I tell you, if these become silent, the stones will cry out!”
 
Luke 19:28-40
 
 
 
 
At first reading, I’m thinking, “Grand Theft Larceny by the disciples.”  They “borrow” the donkey?  As I look closer and read over it again, the word “needs” stands out…Jesus needs the donkey.  The Greek word for ’needs’ is chreia, usually translated as “a need, lack, or want” of something; I have often perceived this part of the Triumphal Entry as supernatural, Jesus – the King and Son of God – knows there will be a particular foal of a donkey tied on the outskirts of town.
Yet I feel and see something different today.  More naturally supernatural, yet unexpected if I am the owner of the foal.  I try to see myself as the owner of this animal.  Would I argue if some people from my church came to take my motorcycle and said “The Master needs it.”?  Would I give no further argument, like the owner here?  If indeed I have pledged my life to Jesus, the King-Who-Comes-In-The-Name-Of-The-LORD riding on the foal of a donkey, does that not include everything I own?  Can I participate and cooperate with His Reign when He asks for my things, my stuff?  I want to Lord.  I want to be a good steward and participate and cooperate with what You are doing always.
 
++Blessed be the King!  O Lord, let not the rocks put us to shame, but I will yet praise You!  I will praise You with my voice, with my life, and with my things!  The King has arrived…long live the King!  Amen++

Lectio: Luke 13:1-8

March 7, 2010

Luke 13

1Now there were some present at that time who told Jesus about the Galileans whose blood Pilate had mixed with their sacrifices. 2Jesus answered, “Do you think that these Galileans were worse sinners than all the other Galileans because they suffered this way? 3I tell you, no! But unless you repent, you too will all perish. 4Or those eighteen who died when the tower in Siloam fell on them—do you think they were more guilty than all the others living in Jerusalem? 5I tell you, no! But unless you repent, you too will all perish.”

 6Then he told this parable: “A man had a fig tree, planted in his vineyard, and he went to look for fruit on it, but did not find any. 7So he said to the man who took care of the vineyard, ‘For three years now I’ve been coming to look for fruit on this fig tree and haven’t found any. Cut it down! Why should it use up the soil?’

 8” ‘Sir,’ the man replied, ‘leave it alone for one more year, and I’ll dig around it and fertilize it. 9If it bears fruit next year, fine! If not, then cut it down.’ “

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Repentance. 

 

My view of repentance was dramatically altered several years ago when I read The Challenge of Jesus by NT Wright. I used to think of repentance in purely moral terms and cutting bad behaviors out of my life. Repentance was a fresh commitment to NOT drink, smoke or chew or go out with girls who do. You’ll have to read NT Wright for yourself if you want the fuller explanation (and it would be WELL worth the time and effort, I promise) but the short version is that repentance has more to do with changing allegiances and cutting ties from anything anti-Christ – and the original context was very political and military – and putting all your eggs in the “Christ is King” basket. So repentance has to do with our loyalty and where we pledge our allegiance as much or more than it has to do with changing a morally questionable behavior…. although that comes as part of the package… its just not where Christ and his original audience would put the emphasis. And here’s why. If we change our allegiance and where we trust then all the rest comes with it. If we simply change a behavior our heart can still be far from Christ. 

 

So that brings into focus what Christ is saying here in this passage and how it hangs together. Christ is saying to the people standing there that if they don’t give up their agenda and alter their allegiance to him they will literally die when God comes in judgement… and God did exactly that shortly after Christ’s departure as Christ had foretold on several occasions (but that is a much longer, theological discussion for another time). 

 

Last week I began asking myself: What would my life look like today if I were to live in complete loyalty to Christ and align with his agenda? And of course there is no one right answer to that but a lifetime of turning to him and shifting all my loyalty, pledging all my allegiance to him alone as areas of my life are uncovered and new idols to turn from are discovered. Repentance is the work of a lifetime not a simple event.

 

What allegiances need to be broken in your life so you are more free for loyalty to Christ?

 

+++ Lord, help me become a great repent-er! I know there are areas you want me to turn from so I can more fully be yours. Will you show them to me and help me know how to cut ties with them so I can follow you more fully, more faithfully in the days and years ahead. I am yours, all yours. Amen. +++

Lectio: Luke 9:28-36

February 26, 2010

 

 
Some eight days after these sayings, He took along Peter and John and James, and went up on the mountain to prayAnd while He was praying, the appearance of His face became different, and His clothing became white and gleamingAnd behold, two men were talking with Him; and they were Moses and Elijahwho, appearing in glory, were speaking of His departure which He was about to accomplish at JerusalemNow Peter and his companions had been overcome with sleep; but when they were fully awake, they saw His glory and the two men standing with Him. And as these were leaving Him, Peter said to Jesus, “Master, it is good for us to be here; let us make three tabernacles: one for You, and one for Moses, and one for Elijah “-not realizing what he was sayingWhile he was saying this, a cloud formed and began to overshadow them; and they were afraid as they entered the cloudThen a voice came out of the cloud, saying, “This is My Son, My Chosen One; listen to Him!” And when the voice had spoken, Jesus was found alone. And they kept silent, and reported to no one in those days any of the things which they had seen.
 
Luke 9:28-36
 
 
 
Upon first reading, what I find great affinity with is the three disciples; the friends whose wrestling in prayer has more to do with being overcome with sleep.  In many of my own prayer attempts – mountain top or otherwise - I wrestle against this as well.  When I read this account of the Transfiguration of Jesus, I can’t help but feel deep down that I want to be a part of something special like what is described here.  Yet, most of the time I just feel left out, left behind somehow, while still struggling with other things (like the other disciples are with trying to cast out a spirit if you read further in chapter 9).   Of course encouragement came recently when someone wrote and said: “The heroes of the Bible are not people who never make mistakes and miss God. They are the people, who, having made a mistake or missed God, keep on after him.”
 
 
Thus to be quite honest, I find this portion of the lectionary somewhat frustrating each time I read through it, and yet I have the feeling something is being said to me.  I trust and feel like these words from the cloud are meant for me.  I have felt like I haven’t “heard” from God in my prayer times lately.  It’s been frustrating.  Yet somehow the words: “This is My Son, My Chosen One; listen to Him!”, jump off the page and into my heart.  I need to listen.  I need to be quiet and listen to Him. 
 
 
++Lord, I trust in You.  Help me to quiet myself – my words, my thoughts, my fears.  I want to listen to You.  Help me to hear You.  Amen++
 

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